This is specially for girls who are struggling to find their hearts and its written specially for my friend.
A quick intro into her dilemma
She's torn in between two guy's, for the purpose of this post, the ex would be called Karl (who I believe is her first love) and the current boyfriend will be called Zac.
This is her problem with karl
It's like every time i try to walk away, he keeps pulling me back. I feel like I'm forever subjected to him, his wish forever my command, my heart forever his, i can never recover it even if i tried. We have lost that spark, we can never be, i swear down, I am very sure of it. And every day i pretend we can be just friends. Yes, i deceive myself for we can never be friends, need less say, lovers. I let go of you once, just so unfortunate you had to take with you, something that belonged to me >> my heart.
This is her problem with Zac
He's everything you would want in a guy. He might not be the best looking , but he's quite a catch. He has the most beautiful soul i have ever seen . He tries to make me happy in every way possible. I might never ask for those things, but he can afford to give me whatever my heart desires, because he thinks I'm worth it. Yes, he has this aggressive desire to protect me from whatever harm comes my way. Being with him might not feel right, but it's worth the try because he is definitely worth it.
So how do you get your heart back from your first love, in all honesty you never really do. The problem I think most people have is that they want results quickly, but things cannot change till we change them.
But I would say this, when love doesn't feel right its never right, and when love feels right but its all wrong it isn't ever right. If you are not sure about your love for someone then thats not right too because you have to be sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that you trust that person only then can you say you are in love because Love and Trust are one and the same.