Frustrations & Finding Faith

i just got rejected from yet another job

i wasn't so disappointed at the start

i mean i was looking forward to

finally having a job

but then my mum said something

to me today that let me understand

something

*you need God*

i never really understood what

it meant to actually serve God

I always thought praying,

reading your bible was enough

but it seems I am wrong.

i am really frustrated with what life

is dishing out to me. I just want to curl

up into a ball and cry all my frustrations away

I am not saying I have a bad life, I have

a great life. I'm just missing something and I think

its God.

You can only go so far by yourself

You need God to carry you the rest of the way

I really want to find God. I just don't know how.

The Web

i had my first job interview

i was really excited...i just

kept smiling. i think the

people think i'm an idiot.

its funny how people get

irritated over what people

tweet. i mean you are at home

complaining about someone's

tweet, while the person doesn't

know and doesn't care. damn shame

same applies to life in general.

no one really cares.

i was thinking why people get upset

that people do not act the way they

do in reality on the web. its silly really

here you have a platform for you to

present to the world how you would

really like to be seen; and people are hating

on that *i cringe anytime i use the word hating/hate/hater*

twitter is like the first time u meet someone

u tell them all the wonderful stories about

yourself, mixed with little fibs here and there,

a couple of half truths, white lies, and the

*don't tell anyone but my dad owns a space shuttle type lies*

and u seem so awesome, but unlike the real world

people never get to see your less than awesome self

just what you to choose to show. everyone does this

wonder why people get mad. its entertaining really.

*warning important life lesson*

lose - when you lose something/to be without something

loose - when you become free from an attachment

studying is boring. even for your favourite

subject when you have no motivation.

need. to. stay. focused.

love&live.

Karma

...is a bitch

and she doesn't care

if you didn't mean to.

a classic case of

do unto others

what you want

done to you.

but as humans.

we miss it. every time.

its a vicious cycle,

what happens to us

may continue to be

punishment, retribution,

or reward for something

done in the past.

like i said before.

life. is. not. funny

its depressing shit.

sometimes when someone

does something bad to me

i just want to see them suffer

for it. i wonder if that makes me

a bad person.

expecting too much from someone is recipe

for disaster. you are just setting yourself up

to be hurt.

wipe the tears

love&live