Sunday, 7 March 2010

clarity and confusion

a lot of things have happened to me
in the past month that could potentially
win the award of most ugly experiences

but its made me realise that sometimes
some things are just beyond your control
really and there are some things you will
never understand.

and it will be annoying and frustrating
and could potentially drive you nuts
but the situation will never change and there
is nothing you can do about it but well
suck it up like a 'man' and move on

lesson learned.

i've been blogging for over a year now.
i hoped for this to be anonymous
but it never really worked out that way.

i've never really got the point of this blog
but i guess its just where i come to relieve

i don't know if i will continue to randomly blog
or if i will blog more often like i've been promising to
or if i will just close this blog

i'm not sure.

i'm not sure about a lot of things
i hoped that by writing i would get clarity.
but it seems that the more i figure
something out. the more confused i get.

maybe i will never get it.
maybe i should stop trying to figure out
what's good and what's bad
what's right and what's wrong

i'm tired of being confused.
i'm tired of being misunderstood
but more importantly,
i'm tired of not really
understanding me.

my madre says i should stop thinking
maybe that is my problem i think a lot
but then, that is what makes me, me.


  1. writing gives me clarity when i write i see things in a whole different way.your mum is do think so should learn how to do the kanye shrug thingy and move on with your life...this life is meant to be lived out, its the uncertainty that makes it so much fun and thinking about our every step in this life is only going to take the fun out of it.
    you should relax a bit and take out some 'me' time just for you. it always makes me feel better.
    i hope you do have a pleasant week.

    stop thinking so much everything would be fine.
    sorry 4 d ugly experiences.
    Ur girl. R Y.

  3. kinda cnfused but its a good one

  4. Thinking about stuff is good and a necessary life skill but you also have to learn to know when to let things go. Sometimes there's no good or bad, wrong or right, black or white. We just have to find the comfortable grey in between. Take care and have a nice week.

  5. you feel yourself and we all share this moment
    we all sing this song of confusion and yet clarity
    comes in like sweet mistakes often breathe fresh recovery
    of the only truth and lack thereof